And the Band Played On

I have said that changes are afoot.  I still can't really write about them yet, some of you know what they are, some may be able to infer, but it's not the time to spell it out.  They are big changes, and while at first their potential crushed me,  I have been able to climb up and learn to breathe again.  I lost my marbles for a bit because of this.  I have found almost all of them at this point.  I think I prefer to be missing a few, I probably didn't need those anyway.  Maybe I will find some new marbles that I've never had.  These changes that once terrified me and broke me down to a point where I didn't know who I was...these changes are something I am now looking forward to.  I see the potential in them, I am embracing the potential in them.  I will never again be broken the way I so recently was.  I will be ok.  As we move into the holidays, I am praying for peace for myself and my family.  I pray the same for you.

Where is that damn tent?

Big changes are afoot, and as I look back and reread the few posts from earlier this year there is a sense of foreboding, of things to come.  I am not ready to write about the changes just yet, but I will be soon.  It's amazing what trickles out when writing from the thoughts roaming around your head.  It's eerie now to go back and see what I have written and to know what is to come. 

For now, I'll share this fantastic picture of the boys, me and my photo bombing mother in law.  She's awesome.